"There is often a wide gap between what we want and what we think people expect us to want." --Y. Berg
he goes on to suggest we ask ourselves often "Is this what I want?"
My awareness of this human experience/clash/tension came super early. By now i expect you've discovered it as well, yes? One very painful time for me was while i was still in High School. My friend and acting partner, having a painful time in his teen years, decided to leave us. he came to school one day and gave his good-byes, which we didn't recognize until it was too late, and that same evening, drove into the desert and shot himself. yes, that's painful, BUT - what happened next was very hard - at least for me. the school set up a special award, a HUGE trophy - in his honor - in his name. Since i was winning awards all over the United States for acting, it was expected i be the first winner/recipient, therefore a bronze plaque with my name engraved on it would be the very first affixed to this . . mobile monument. I was uncomfortable - i was grief stricken and grown-ups all around me were behaving like pack animals gone wild (which is another story in itself.) My classmates reassured themselves everything would go according to plan and - in memory - the story/saga would have some romantic twist. ARGUH! I refused to attend events - i refused to compete - I refused to talk about it - i came very close to refusing to attend any classes at all . . . .
Being difficult to control, people are often upset with me.
yep. It happens all the time, in big and small ways - we do what's expected of us - even when the pressure is too great - or it makes us unhappy (isn't that a little like being dead - not being able to live your own life & dreams?)
So, if it's choosing ice cream, or a career, or - well - anything at all.
I agree with Yehuda. feel free to ask yourself, "Is this what I want?"
And act accordingly . . . well, if you dare . . you certainly have my permission . . .
Come on, New Year, Bring It!
Let's see what Beauty we can build/achieve this time around, hm?
love & love,
The minute you settle for less than you deserve, you get even less than you settled for. -- Maureen Dowd
Be fit for more than the thing you are now doing. Let everyone know that you have a reserve in yourself; that you have more power than you are now using. If you are not too large for the place you occupy, you are too small for it. -- James A. Garfield
Am i too small? Certainly there is MUCH MORE for me to do. Usually i feel either lost or a failure. I try to cheer myself by singing, "I'm not lost, i am exploring!" Then, i try to remember it's not about me - so "suit up, show up" and the Holy One will take care of the rest.
Is it the same for you? Are you still reaching for your most possibility? What or how are you doing? Got tips for the rest of us? Any of us feeling self-secure? (If so, how did you manage this?)
Are you taking stock of the year past? Are you looking expectantly towards the the year ahead? Are you like me - doing this several times every year?
I am not afraid of storms, for I am learning how to sail my ship. -- Louisa May Alcott
How are we all doing? Have you been taking stock of what you've accomplished in the last few months?
Oh dear, are some of you in the middle of the shopping craze? I just thought of that, perhaps my timing is a little off. Well, if my instincts are correct and shopping is the activity of the moment . . please be careful - YOU are more important that a thing . . . YOU are more important than a dollar . . . YOU, Beautiful YOU are the gift . . . so, whatever the moment is saying to you -
STILL Value YourSelf Highly . . okay???
So, back to why i thought i was logging in . . . The reason this quote caught my attention . . . I've been through a lot of changes since the Century Change. It's all turning out rather well, i think. I don't for a moment think I'm where I'll end up - not "finished," so to say - but, the adventure is turning out to be worth taking - not that i consciously chose it, but - since I was headed this way - Yeppers, I seem to be learning to "sail my ship." And, feel pleased at the doing/being.
So, I just wanted to ask you - how's your adventure going?
Thank you for being such good companions along the way,
Every once in a great while i see why the Holy One set me off on this unique path.
On Wednesday Afternoons/Evenings I get to share stories with young people. It's a great deal of fun and a small amount of classroom management. I enjoy it, but still miss the "first georgy." (The person I spent most of my life being.)
This term one of the young people asked if I'd tell about his namesake, Josuha. It was the first time I've had a request like this and i decided to honor it, adding Joshua to the curriculum we already cover.
What an immense JOY. These stories are not what the people generally get to hear. They sat forward, eyes and hopes glued - towards me, in my direction, maybe, but they were seeing the story Itself, finding a treasure for themselves in the ancient writings, meant to give them Hope and a Future.
This HAS happened lately - in different types of groups - and, I've been satisfied with the doing - But, yesterday, before an ice storm, I felt I had the great privilege of handing out LIFE.
It seems the Holy One has a Great Job to do And, we get to help . . . And - maybe, that's why my feet were placed, in an unusual way, on this path.
[Water is] the only drink for a wise man. --Henry David Thoreau
I type this thought in, while enjoying a cup of coffee . . with cream . . . perhaps i can't claim myself wise, hm?
He that can't endure the bad, will not live to see the good. -- Jewish Proverb
I once had a friend who would call late at night, almost every night. She was excited about a television program called "Mary Hartman, Mary Hartman." Try as she might, she could not get me to watch it - but, it made her laugh so hard, she just HAD to share. So, besides seeing the wisdom in the thought (quote) above.
It also makes me think of some of the quotes I'd hear over the phone (long distance, back in the day long distance was a huge communication investment . . . )
"Tell me the one about the silver lining again, it's my favorite." - - - from "Mary Hartman, Mary Hartman" - via my friend.
I have a chum experiencing a challenge - I don't know if it comes under the heading "BAD." But, it IS concerning . . AND - today, may of us are dealing with an ice covered world - an inconvenience compared to what many people on earth have faced and over come.
I think about the Truly Challenged often. (Like right now) - i pray for them and wish them well - and remember, as long as i still grimace about that television show i never saw - I have nothing to complain about.
I hope dress code and goodness do not necessarily reflect one another. i mean, i know some exceptional people who dress impeccably. I think they must wake up well tailored in the morning. Since it hurts my mind to shop, or be like anyone else, I always seem to present in a backwards sort of way. I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm clean and covered - but, all the rules of fashion are completely ignored. The only time in my life i ever looked "ordinary" was during the modeling period of my life, which was blessedly short. Then someone dressed me, did hair & make-up and I showed out for the time allotted, then promptly ditched the facade and got back into my hiking boots, jeans and baseball hat - golly, that was way back - last century. Isn't that fun to say, "Way back last century?"
love & love, g
Always do right. This will gratify some people and astonish the rest. -- Mark Twain
Bite off more than you can chew, then chew it. Plan more than you can do, then do it. -- Anonymous
I remember being taught our plans MUST be too big for one person to achieve.
In fact, we MUST make our plans SO LARGE that, even a group of people working together would not accomplish it. ESPECIALLY, if it's a good plan, one to bless/empower a lot of people, maybe even Mankind Itself. Because, then the plan will SURELY Succeed because God will step in and show out.
Often I've had friends grumble about plans on my list that fling far out into the future.
They are always happy with the outcome after it's achieved.
Yeah God! Thanks for giving us Vision.
Thanks for giving us Hope and a Future!
I'll continue to fling Inspiration way out - farther than possible - and, I'll continue to believe
The Holy One Make All Things Possible . . .
I heard a saying yesterday - I meant to write it down . . I didn't BUT it is still calling to me today - so, now it may be slightly "georgy-ized" -
One who finds True Love has been favored by God
One who does not has become One with God
Yehuda Berg offers this:
"The Omitted Verse"
The term “Son of God” appears in the Zohar, but it refers to everyone and anyone who masters the art of miracle-making. The Zohar explains that when someone reaches this level of being: “There’s no separation between the Son and the Father. They are one. And all the treasure of the Father’s house is there for the Son to use.” Most modern day translations of the Zohar mysteriously omit these verses because they are so powerful. I’m reminding you because it’s time to remember your potential.
I didn't take this photo - I couldn't figure out HOW to get a good portrait of the little visitor. I don't know if he's a "him" or a "her." I do know "he" is interesting and amazing and brave. So, earlier this week i was out in the driveway trying to put a huge amount of styro-foam squares back into the shipping crate that carried them here. I thought something was broken in the house - like maybe the washer - or dryer - because I heard a loud, persistent (mechanical sounding) squeak-ish sound - over & over. I stood inside the kitchen, the sound was LOUD. i walked towards the laundry room, quiet . . . . (since one of my ears doesn't listen to worldly sounds, direction is challenging to guess.) - Eventually I figured out it was right out there - in the driveway - and, it wasn't mechanical - it was a bird. "He" allowed himself to be seen - and, golly, it seems "he" was thankful for the feeder I'd hung in the tiny tree by the new fence. :He wasn't even afraid with me standing just a few feet away. "He's been visiting for a few days, it's getting cold out. Won't "he' be flying somewhere warmer soon? I realize not everyone enjoys the birds as i do . . . but, this little "guy" can count on a meal when "he" stops to visit . . .
Second, my friend Celeste is in Israel. She will be thinking of me, especially when she visits Tzfat. I will be thinking of her, especially as i sing "Face of God."
Third: (a learning i enjoyed earlier this week)
"No, the Exodus did not destroy evil in the world. What is did was set up an alternative conception of life. Were it not for the Exodus, humans would have reconciled themselves to the evils that exist in the world. The Exodus establishes the dream of perfection and thereby creates the tension that must exist until reality is redeemed. . . Where does Israel get the strength - the chutzpah - to go on believing in redemption in a world that knows mass hunger and political exile and boat people? How can Jews testify to hope and human value when they have been continuously persecuted, hated, dispelled, destroyed? Out of the memories of the Exodus!. . . "
Happy Time of Hope!
Happy Time of Lights!
Thinking of you this morning
and sending you LOVE,
To see the earth as it truly is, small and blue and beautiful in that eternal silence where it floats, is to see ourselves as riders on the earth together, brothers on that bright loveliness in the eternal cold. -- Archibald MacLeish
Let no one ever come to you without leaving better and happier. -- Mother Teresa
A very long time ago i was given something to do. The Holy One asked me to notice every person that passed my way and, while i was looking at them i was to think (silently . . I wasn't to say anything out loud)
i was to look - notice - see them - and THINK:
"I Love You."
It wasn't about me at all . . It was a favor I was asked to do for (and by) the Holy One.
After many years, i noticed - almost by mistake, that the thinking was bubbling over into words - But, Not "normal stuff" - Nope, Loving stuff the Holy One wanted saying . . .
Odd, hm? Maybe you want to listen - Maybe there's a favor you can do . . .
It does not matter how slowly you go so long as you do not stop. -- Confucius
Now, this is a comforting thought. I seem to plod along, happy as anything for the most part, But, my pace is "slow, but steady."
I'm certainly thrilled with all the changes Life has provided. At this moment, I'm grateful for a few hours to do as i please, maybe catch up a little with you. I'd take a camera out to share the day with you but, It's a little cold beyond comfort - AND - WET . . (burrrrr.) So, sending you my Love will just have to do.
Wait a minute, a friend sent me a beautiful cyber-flower. Let's see if i can retrieve it for you . . . hold on . . .
Ta-Daaa! From my friend James - to YOU. Happy Thanksgiving. AND - I want to thank you for sharing the Journey with me. I KNOW - we don't meet over coffee - although, that would be really nice - Please know, you mean a lot to me, I am Grateful for You in my Life. Sending You Love And All Wishes for Peace Profound, g
Hope begins in the dark, the stubborn hope that if you just show up and try to do the right thing, the dawn will come. You wait and watch and work: You don't give up. -- Anne Lamott
Remember Mother Teresa's prayer, "Do It Anyway?"
yepper - That's the key. You might momentarily find yourself surrounded with nasty, unkind, unsupportive people -
Take it as a good sign, that you're on your way and "Do it anyway."
(you are NOT alone . . . )
Make visible what, without you, might perhaps never have been seen. -- Robert Bresson
The Aristrocratic Shabbes Bride She arrives on Friday evening as if for a wedding – do we imagine her? dressed all in white the jewels the train of the bride the costuming where’d she get that dress? We do. We do imagine her, We sing her a wedding song the wedding party we anticipate her as the sun makes its way home in the west. We dress nicely for her [it’s a wedding]! We dress in white wool cool in the summer warm in the winter the way wool holds the body heat wool made from sheep ordinarily could be made from rabbits I suppose Angora or Cashmere made from goats, I suppose you could make wool from any furry creature but not that greasy cat that lives in my basement wool from sheep’s wool from sheep sheep’s wool has scales that overlap like shingles on a roof, Wool taken from sheep produced for meat typically it’s more coarse merino wool, nice, very fine moths love it. Don’t think me irreverant to describe the mystical bride this way. – it’s just that I am seeing her as I write this and the wool is fine, fine super-fine. The wool is clean white long fine and free of defects from the environment that alone would be worthy of a proper welcome especially from someone like James Joyce or Dylan Thomas who wrote poetry and wore wool, scratchy, smelling like tobacco. Neither of them would think that the whole Shabbes bride imagery was a lot of hooey I guarantee it they would go deep into it for its beauty in language and form and for its wool that they wore every day, greeting her or not. Wool has greater crimp, crimp – the number of bends per unit length along the wool fiber a fine wool like merino may have up to a hundred crimps an inch wool fabrics have great bulk and retain air which causes WOOL to retain heat. It works both ways how do we understand that? Bedouins of the great deserts and Tuaregs wear wool to keep the heat out. I saw this myself in the Sinai my Bedouin driver wore wool sweaters buttoned up in 120 degree heat. He didn’t sweat into the wool either. Well, gotta go – The sun is skating down her dress the last of its rays she is looking for us it’s time to welcome her this way: Come my beloved let us greet her the wedding song the wedding poem forget about what she’s wearing sing the wedding poem: Lecha Dodi likrat kalah p’nai Shabbat n’kabbelah. Shhh, here she comes the Bride check out the wool yes, yes it is fine white well crimped can’t make out the details only this: She has come looking for God. jsg, usa
I'm sitting at my desktop, waiting for the sun. I wonder if she's going to smile through this window while I wait . . hmmm . . .
Language exerts hidden power, like a moon on the tides. -- Rita Mae Brown
This is a good reminder for me today. I'm packed and ready for school, have two classes of trusting, young people. Always i remind mySelf we were given such great power. We were told we have the choice between Blessing and Cursing . . . and we were prompted to choose Blessing.
AND - if that weren't enough, we are told God lives in the Praises of His people. Let my mouth be full of Blessing and Praise today (and all other days, please.) Let me be an Encourager, please. Let me pass along the great Gift - Hope and a Future. Amen.
Meaning, we should take care where we put ourselves - THEN, should we need assistance (or saving) we can depend upon it, because we have behaved appropriately. Today I saw this quote, that reminds everyone . . .
Never expose yourself unnecessarily to danger;
a miracle may not save you...and if it does,
it will be deducted from your share of luck or merit.
-- The Talmud
Here's a happy quote:
A smile is the shortest distance between two people. -- Victor Borge
The best way to get approval is not to need it. -- Hugh Macleod
Arguh! Don't we KNOW this one. Right? How many times have we started out on a project and been flooded with people ripping it (and us) apart at the seams, before we've even finished what we started. I'm wondering if there's a way to insulate ourselves from this outside ambush.
Then, i wonder how to insulate myself from self-doubt - BUT - perhaps that's another subject.
Education is when you read the fine print. Experience is what you get if you don't. -- Pete Seeger
Ai-yi-yi! I've sure had opportunity to amass plenty of this extra "Experience."
Fortunately, The Holy One is always willing to help a True Heart and we find opportunities to set things right. Eventually we get to start all over with new projects that seem so much better, the sting from those "bumpier times" become fond memory.
Happy End of October I think November has Great Things in store for us Love & Love, g
Education is when you read the fine print. Experience is what you get if you don't. -- Pete Seeger
Ay-yi-yi, I've had ample opportunity to learn this lesson the hard way. By now, of course, i know the difference, BUT, you know, even now I get the chance for extra "experience" because I didn't have enough paperwork in place before I started a project.
Thankfully, the Holy One always helps a True Heart to turn things around, get things right - and start again.
Sending you love - Happy End of October to you -
Looking forward to what November brings - I just know it's going to be wonderful.
Rabbi Zalman taught several times when i was a student. I learned so many things from him and promptly began adding his techniques/suggestions/style to my "tool belt."
I mean to say,
i out right copied what I saw him do.
He inspired me
I would enjoy more time with him - BUT this isn't what i want to tell you.
What i want to share has to do with the fact that i never feel certain that I'm doing a decent "job." (Not that what i do is hard work - it's a JOY, I'm just not secure . . . 'nuff said.)
So, I'm teaching on Saturday last and asked each student for commentary or story having something to do with our topic of the day.
My heart was made so happy it was a challenge to keep happy tears a secret. Many of them gave answers beginning with conversational sounds of speech THEN Suddenly breaking into song when they got to the best part of their story or answer.
AH! Right AND Left brain answers - definitely ZALMAN.
I may not seem 'good enough' (to me) BUT - my Teacher, Zalman - is Stellar - and, these young people, without realizing, have and are sharing Sparks from this great man.
A Maggid Report that makes me Glad to share with you.
(See? Spirit goes ahead of us all - makes the way straight - gets it done - if we just say yes -suit up & show up. . . . . Hurray!)
Everything should be made as simple as possible, but not one bit simpler.
-- Albert Einstein, (attributed)
I often wonder if the path meant for us is actually simple. See, i know a lot of 'complicated' people. Every decision seems so challenging they often choose not to do anything at all, or to wait so long the thing they were debating is loooong gone.
yet, so many of my heroes seem to "go forth." Knowing everything will be made right - because the Holy One is in charge. All they need to do is act.
Now, I'm not saying i 'simply' get things right all the time.
I'm just wondering if our paths might be simple, if we would choose to follow our heart - (or, better said, "Our HEART")
Having a dream is what keeps you alive. Overcoming the challenges make life worth living. - - Mary Tyler Moore