Monday, January 13, 2014
I keep thinkin' of that theme song: "we're movin' on up . . . " Do you remember it????
See, I took a mis-step a while back and found myself
"painted in a corner." I am/was so accustomed to being wildly successful, i refused to see the situation as it was - so, i did EVERYTHING I could think of to "fix" what turned out to be
"unfix-able" the way it was. sigh.
After doing everything possible to remedy the situation, i finally had to admit it was not ever going to be better . . . in fact, if i let it play out the way it was - i would not survive. SO, I told myself the truth, and continue (to this day) to say the same to the culprit with a "flat line mentality."
I have learned I am good at a LOT of things. (Nice to know.) But, if i do not look honestly at my surroundings, i attract the same kind of issues - Therefore, it is part of my life lesson to claim myself and my dreams and see how far i get. (I used to talk out loud to myself, being my own best friend, that "we" would just see how far we could get . . . )
That's where all this newbie art stuff comes from . . Me, rebuilding. I only share this, in case any of you felt alone in your own growth. SEE?? It happens . . we can do this.
Okay, the affirmation came from reading some Rumi - I don't remember his words - my are hard to read. It says, "The night has passed. I have plenty of work to do," and "I am silently drawn by the pull of what i truly love."
Just lately I have felt lighter, free-er - I'm certain things are on the upswing.
I know presenting for World Peace Day was a marker for my spirit.
Winter Break is over and it's good to be back in the classroom.
By the way - that last watercolor was so mean to me . . . I'm making the paints participate in mixed media until I'm ready to give "fine arts" another go . . giggle.
never give up,
love & love,